Future Looking Uncertain

This is what happens when you don’t go to your scheduled lesson. I was on Facebook and I saw that Teach was promoted to management. Some of his students were writing those heartfelt messages and showing pics. Now who’s my teacher? Sometimes managers continue to teach their long time students (I’m his longest). Do I want to continue at this studio? I’ve stayed for Teach, because no one has fit so well with my personality, you know I’ve tried. I also like the way they teach there compared to the local franchise. You know what? I just gave my mom advice today to stop worrying until you know for sure what’s going on. Seems like I should take that advice for myself. Guess I’m making a call Monday.

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A Thought

I was at Barnes and Noble for their YA book festival and one of the authors who spoke said something that hit me. “You can’t create and judge at the same time.” This applies to us dancers (I called myself a dancer!!!), too. Dance is an art and a sport. Sometimes the weight of technique gets to us. But I know that I need dance as an art form, as well. To do that I need to just go out there and dance without so many evil voices. Just needed to share with you lovelies. 

Apologies

I just wanted to drop a quick line to everyone. I’m a lot behind on my blog reading and in updating my own blog. The reasons are the usual ones- I’ve been busy! It’s the end of the homeschool year, work has been overwhelming, and I’m planning the next school year. To reduce my overall anxiety level, I’ve restricted my screen time. It really helps me to rest better and calm down. So be forwarned, one day soon I’m going to read and like all 10 or more posts you’ve written. I’m looking forward to catchin up soon. Until then, happy dancing!

Cancel or Not?

It seems like I’ve been sick all year. I’ve had the flu, the stomach flu, colds, allergies and, last week, a sinus infection. I’m not going to debate on why this year seems to be hitting me like a punch in the gut by The Rock, but I do want to see how others handle this problem: When do you not go to your dance lesson?

I’m an adult female. I work as a nurse. I know when sick is Sick (with a big S). This is the no-brainer call out of work, cancel all scheduled activites and stay in bed. Fever, vomiting, etc, all warrant a halt of activity. As your fever breaks or the vomiting stops, things proceed to the gray area. I don’t want to sound terrible here, but management expects nurses to come to work if their temperature is less than 101 degrees F. They want us to come to work the day after we stop vomiting even if we can’t really eat yet. I know that this is terrible, but that’s healthcare. I don’t agree with it, but there’s not much I can do about it. Stopping at this thought – It’s depressing and makes my blood pressure rise. But, it is possible to not feel your greatest and still work. Depending on your job and level of contact with other humans, this “not feeling well” could go either way – a stay home or a call out. Stay with me here, this is going somewhere.

Dance lessons are a whole other ball game. There is still Sick (with a big S) where cancelling is the only possibility. But when do you go back? This is where it’s hard. I may go back to work but cancel my lesson. Considering how much I love to go to the studio and how many goals I have, why would I do that when I’m merely at the end of a cold?  I don’t want to pass anything on to Teach, that’s for sure. But the bottom line is this: It is a waste of money to go to a lesson that I can’t pay attention to. If my brain is floating in the Milky Way, I need to be at home. I cancelled my lesson on the 28th because I was getting a cold, went to my lesson on the 4th because I was feeling better and then got sick on the way down (don’t forget my 2 hour each way trip). I went to that one because of the 24 hour cancellation policy or you’ll still pay for that lesson thankyouverymuch. Thankfully it was only a single lesson. More on that later. How do you all handle illness and lessons? Are you all lucky to have the constitution of an ox?

Owlcrate January 2016 *Spoilers*

I’ve subscribed to a few subscription boxes over the past year because of my curiosity. Most of them are book related because I have no willpower. 

January has been all sickness for this family. One after another we’re getting coughs, fevers, aches, sore throats, etc, resulting in cancelled dance lessons, sick days, and doctors appointments. Since I need to be slightly present on my own blog despite not being able to sit upright without vertigo, I’m going to share what arrived in the mail for me today…an Owlcrate! I seem to get mine later than most people, so I doubt this is truly spoiling anything, but, I’m warning those few anyway…the picture of contents is directly underneath this sentence. 

  
I wasn’t thrilled with the theme this month. I’m not into magic in my books. I bought a 3 month subscription when there was a sale and you can’t skip months. So people with picky reading tastes need to beware. 

The book this month is Worlds of Ink and Shadow by Lena Coakley. The synopsis sounds like something I could enjoy. It’s a fantasy rebelling of the lives of the Bronte sisters. The book comes with a letter from the author and a paper doll set. Very cute. 

There are some other goodies in the box, including: white chocolate-mint lip balm by Geek Fire Labs, and two pieces of art by Evie Bookish. The glaringly obvious item of the box is a Funko Pop! Of Harry Potter. I’m going to get a ton of hate for saying this, especially taking into account recent celebrity deaths, but I’m sick to death of Harry Potter. So this item needs to go somewhere else. 

This box wasn’t my cup of tea, but last month was perfect. I’ve been following the contents  of the box for many months. I really love the bookish goodies that come each month, and the books all seem excellent. I’m just a picky lady when it comes to genre. 😉

Thoughts on Resolutions

I don’t make New Year resolutions. Never have. Turning over into a new year doesn’t erase all the things you’ve done. After the party is over you still have to go back to your same old life. That being said, I can’t get away from goal setting.

The dance studio has me make dance goals around every 3-6 months. One of the times we do this is now. I have the sheet of paper in hand as I type.

I follow a lot of book bloggers and youtube bloggers because I read a lot. Now they’re all reviewing their years and making book reading goals for next year. All the new book reading challenges are coming out. I’m a planner and list maker by nature, so all the videos and blogs are making me want to join in the fun!

Needless to say, it’s hard to get away with not making goals. (I’m going to call them goals and not resolutions. Resolution is such a bad word.) Depending on if I cave in to the pressure to make lists, you may see lots of posts the next few days. I can’t stomp my feet with the dance goals, but I’d love to resist some of the book craziness!

October Reading Wrap-Up

October was a very stressful month for me. I wasn’t very interested in reading the books I had from the library; I wasn’t too thrilled about the ones I own either. Here’s what I accomplished book wise in October.

Library Books:

  • Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo 4/5
  • Seige and Storm by Leigh Bardugo 3/4
  • Ruin and Rising by Leigh Bardugo 4/5
  • The Rest of Us Just Live Here by Patrick Ness 3/5

Owned Books:

  • Basket Case by Carl Hiaasen 3/5
  • I’d Tell You I Love You, But Then I’d Have To Kill You by Ally Carter 3/5
  • The Perilous Journey of the Not-So-Innocuous Girl by Leigh Statham 4/5

NetGalley Review Books:

  • Nick and Tesla’s Robot Army Rampage by Bob Pflugfelder 4/5
  • Death Before Decaf by Caroline Fardig 4/5
  • Science of Parenthood by Norine Dworkin-McDaniel 4/5

Audiobooks:

  • Savvy by Ingrid Law 4/5
  • Bloody Jack by L.A. Meyer 4/5

On to November I go. I have two weeks off in the middle of the month, but a lot of that time is going to be spent preparing for my dance competition. I have a few more lessons than usual, plus some memorizing and worrying to do. I hope everyone had a great October.

An Attempt

I’ve had a particularly bad week emotionally. Homeschooling, work, dance, family, everyone had something to say the week that overloaded my tanks. I let stress pile up until I break from the most mundane thing. It’s not healthy, I know that. But here we are. Everyone is steering clear of me, afraid, and I’m hating myself. It will get better, but I wish it didn’t happen at all. 

                                         

Summer Life Wrap-Up

It’s about that time. Summer was great, but fall is in the air. I feel like thinking about the stuff I’ve done (or not) this summer.

  • I danced in my first Showcase.
  • I read nearly all the books I planned to.
  • Walked the Brooklyn Bridge with my mom and daughter.
  • Visited the World Trade Center Memorial.
  • Swam. A lot.
  • Finished with my Invisalign treatment. Permanent retainer in place.
  • Introduced my daughter to all the disgusting, chemical laden candy of my childhood. (War Heads, anyone?)
  • Visited NY Botanical Garden. Enjoyed the Frida Kahlo exhibit. (Daughter keeps asking if she has a unibrow.)
  • Did not go on a vacation. Booooo.
  • Ended up doing no homeschool with my daughter. I wanted to, but we were burnt out after last year and needed the break.
  • Had two nasty colds.
  • Subscribed to Geek Box. I love it!
  • Subscribed to Book Riot Quarterly Boxes. Love them! Now I just need to read the books that came.
  • Daughter seems to be losing all her teeth. All those molars!
  • I got a pedicure. (Yes, only one.)
  • Decided with Daughter that she would like to focus on gymnastics this year. Goodbye Ballet and Tap. I’m a bit sad, but she turned 11 and knows what she likes.
  • Visited Harney and Sons Soho for tea.
  • Rediscovered NetGalley.
  • Recalled why I stopped using NetGalley. (Must review all those books!)

There’s my Summer in a nutshell. Nothing earth shattering. I hope others had a wonderful summer. Looking forward to what Autumn brings!